A Mother Here

"In Her Image" - Jennifer Smith. Third Place. This work is mixed media (oil and floral decoupage) on canvas paper. The impulse behind the work came from my desire to create an image of the Prime Female as a being representative of the human race as a whole. I would love all women who view this image to feel as though they are made perfectly; in image of a Heavenly Mother who embraces and embodies all possibilities of skin/eye/hair color facial features etc.

Mother Goose

How deeply I love you, my Mother!!!

How I wish you had loved me.

You couldn’t.

You couldn’t do it!!!

You were just a shell,

A shell left over from rape,

From an unwanted pregnancy,

A baby boy you never saw, never held, never wanted.

I’m told you were abused as well.

By your father.

That is impossible for me to imagine.

It must have been someone else.

Who hurt you?

Who formed the monster you became with me?

How do you possibly justify what you did to me?

By telling the world I was “crazy”

So no one would listen if I told.

I never told.

What would be the point?

You took away or killed everything I ever loved.

You definitely tried.

You wanted me to see you

as having total power over me.

You wanted me to believe that you were

too powerful to ever be questioned.

What I know I KNOW is

You were never powerful at all,

 You were pitiful.

With all your manipulations.

All your attempts to control.

All your lies.

You are a liar!!!

Just a liar.

Your teeth caved in.

Eaten away, turned upon themselves.

Dead, dead, dead like you!!!

I wish this had a pretty ending.

But…it is what it is.

There are times when we have to be

thankful for what is!!!

I AM grateful for the way things really were!!!

You made me stronger than

I ever could have possibly imagined!!!

Without intending to do it,

You made me exactly what I AM TODAY!!!

STRONG, HEALTHY, INVINCIBLE,

UNBREAKABLE, UNDISPUTED, INDISPUTABLE,

IMMACULATE, WEATHER-PROOF.

I AM SOMEONE WHO CANNOT

POSSIBLY BE BEATEN!!!

I AM UNBEATABLE!!!

UNBEATABLE!!!

UNBEATABLE!!!

UN BEATEN!!!

UN BEATEN!!!

UN BEATEN!!!

I AM ALIVE!!!

I AM ALIVE!!!

I AM ALIVE!!!

I REMAIN ALIVE FOREVER!!!

Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you,

thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

© Molly Silfies and ChiCreation, 1978-2078. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Molly Silfies, ChiCreation™, I AM Reiki™, Ascended Master Reiki™ and/or OnenessReiki™ with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

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From Chronic Celibacy to Perfect Sexual Ecstasy in 60 Seconds or Less

This is a re-post from last October, unchanged except for grammar and spelling. Not having posted for a very long time and considering the current issues in my own life, revisiting this post seems most appropriate now. Irregardless of who we are, whatever our “past”, there is a perfect match/mate for each of us; being with him or her requires unwavering courage and perhaps letting go of what no longer fits or serves us! Thanks again, Mary, for being a shining light in my life, for supporting me in my own conscious growth, and for embracing

JOY WITH PASSION!

Because you loved yourself, you are truly loved!

This post is respectfully dedicated to Mary Daniels.  Wherever you are, Mary, my sincerest gratitude for showing those of us blessed to know you, the way!

I met Mary in Scottsdale AZ in 1993.  She was the only non-Mormon in our Reiki training group of 20, more or less; a fewsome were in and out, although we were mostly stable.  Mary was in her early 60’s and had been married to her husband, Steve, for some 40 years, he an architect and she a gifted, talented interior designer/decorator.  Their shared business was lucrative, very profitable.  They had three grown daughters.  Steve spent most of his time playing with several electric trains for which he had built an elaborate playground in their triple garage, which left their vehicles on the street.  Good thing it doesn’t rain much in Scottsdale.

Beautiful and shapely, Mary missed the delightful sexual expression she craved again now that she and her husband had the house to themselves after years of raising children.  She booked a two-week tantra workshop, a surprise for her husband’s birthday. I recall her excitement vividly.  Steve told her she was crazy. They didn’t need that at their age, it wasn’t appropriate.  He wasn’t going.  I also recall her bewildered tears; the woman cried an Amazon.

God bless her!  After failing to get a refund for the money she had already paid, Mary chose to go to the workshop alone, without her husband.  I watched while she packed.  There was no trace of a smile.  Her face was etched with grim determination to enjoy her body, her life, and her sexuality, to experience being fully alive every possible moment.

Though I thought of her often, I didn’t hear from Mary during the two-week workshop.  When she returned home, as I stepped through her front door, her radiance was incredible, palpable.  She was glowing, happy, filled with fiery joy.  God had provided her a partner some 25 years younger than she.  The workshop had required that they live naked for the full two weeks.  They had worked outdoors together, building a shelter to share and exploring each other’s bodies.  He asked her to join him in Canada, to live with him for as long as possible.

My Mormon brain flip-flopped.  Mary and Steve met with their daughters, who concluded that their mother was surely experiencing a severe mental episode that required treatment. Mary stood her ground.  She also signed over all finances and property accumulated during their 40-year marriage, if it can rightly be called a marriage, to Steve and their daughters, keeping none of it for herself.  After saying a few good-byes, she promptly flew to Canada to her new life, free to enjoy her body, her sexuality, and the restoration of her Self, to enjoy being with the man who actually wanted and truly enjoyed her.

I never heard from Mary again.  I’ve often thought of her, with profound gratitude to her for being a way shower.  She was, and hopefully still is, a very powerful woman.

In the wake of some recent experiences of my own, this is up in my face again! Okay! Let’s do it! No flinching this time! I’m ready!

Love requires us to put our priorities in order and to make choices that embrace the life we truly desire.  Love may also require that we allow no one and nothing to keep us from being with our beloved, the one who loves us, not our money, nor our education, nor our social standing, but who we are inside once we are stripped bare naked to stand in our true power in the light.

Love the person you truly are!  God bless!  Until next post, Namaste!

© Molly Silfies and ChiCreation, 1978-2078. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Molly Silfies, ChiCreation™, I AM Reiki™, Ascended Master Reiki™ and/or OnenessReiki™ with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

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Putting Out the Trash

Good morning!  It’s been a while since there’s been a new post here.  New day, new month, so much going on, blogging took a very brief back seat.  We’re back!  Is almost everyone in clearing mode right now?  We have been, meaning myself and my loved ones.  No uncomfortable cleaning/clearing this time, just deep, long awaited, joyous release of emotions, things, and thoughts that no longer fit.

There was minor retrying-on of a few items.  If they do still fit, why get rid of them?  But for the most part, everyone is on track and blissfully moving forward in our truly enjoyable present, without all the old encumbrances.  FREEDOM!

One of my daughters has a mandate in her own family, home, and life:  Donate, give or otherwise remove everything not currently in use.  Obviously this does not include financial records or holiday decorations, but everything else is fair game!  I’ve accused her of being fanatical about this.  She swears it keeps the energy of her life moving, flowing, and bringing in wondrous new stuff that’s way better than all the old put together.  And she hasn’t even studied feng shui!

Many folks cling to things, ideas, and habits out of fear.  Merely considering letting go of some parts of our lives can be scary, although they long ago became useless, even unhealthy.  If you’ve ever watched a show about hoarding, you already know this. Useless clutter interferes with functionality as well as beauty and peacefulness, as well as providing a haven for dirt and filth. Hoarding is undeniably unhealthy.

But what about just hanging onto such things as food choices that don’t keep us healthy, choosing criticism rather than bestowing a compliment, or continuing to smoke because, “I’m not ready to give it up!  I really enjoy smoking.”

Recently I read a remark that, compared to the Gulf oil spill, “My smoking doesn’t seem so bad!”  That floored me to utter silence. The person making that remark is an intelligent, lovely person who has stubbornly clung to her tobacco habit even though it has cost her clients, friends, and loved ones.  The habit was more important to her than anyone else’s comfort, and people left her life.  I was one of them.

She introduced me to other smokers, perhaps with the intent that I would “get used to it”.  I didn’t.  What happened in my life, in response to constant reminders that, “I have a right to light!” was that I assumed a silent stand that I have a right to breathe clean air, to fill my lungs with oxygen, and to enjoy the smells of my home and my surroundings!

Looking back, I have much to thank this woman for!  I did learn to quietly, firmly stand up for what is right for me, and to let go of behaviors, people, relationships, and things that do not belong in my harmonious, peaceful life.  She literally forced me into it, and I’m eternally grateful!

A couple of times, I wondered if she ever missed my presence in her life.  I doubt that she ever did.  In fact, I’m certain that she still prefers her cigarettes and other habits to the friendship of anyone who cannot hang with consumption of her second-hand and third-hand smoke.

The bottom line is, everyone gets to make their own choices here! Short of your doing something glaringly illegal, and often not even then, no one comes into your life and rips away the things you cling to.  Many of us fear the discomfort of change.  Those with actual addictions fear the physical pain and agony of withdrawing from what they are choosing to hang onto.

We who do periodic cleaning/clearing of ourselves, bodies, homes, and personal spaces, come to enjoy even the symptoms of clearing because these symptoms herald the freedom and clarity that follow!

My personal journey with Reiki has been one of pursuing functionality and seeking health.  I’ve learned to be comfortable with everyone’s choices, including my own when it becomes necessary to let go of all that hurts me.  Yes, at times this includes leaving behind people that I genuinely love.  The love never departs.  Fortunately, I love myself enough to set and honor the boundaries that make my own life enjoyable.

To me, this is what Reiki is all about.  As we live day-to-day according to The Reiki Principles, it becomes first nature to KNOW OUR SELVES, and to joyously live accordingly!  The Reiki Precepts teach us how to live; they are guidelines for living the best life.  When we have mastered that, there is time enough to treat others, to be politically active, and to seek whatever else we desire.

Here is a loose translation of The Reiki Precepts into the English language:

Just for today I will give thanks for my many blessings.
Just for today I will not worry.
Just for today I will not anger.
Just for today I will do my work honestly.
Just for today I will love and respect every living thing.

May we all be blessed with the most abundant life ever!  Until next post, Namaste!

One Reiki Family

Under the sky, under the heaven, there is but one family.

Bruce Lee

When introduced to Reiki way back when, I thought everybody practiced Reiki the same way.  It wasn’t until a bit later that we were told about The Reiki Alliance.  Looking back, we in the Light Therapy tradition were given very little information about other traditions and ways of practicing Reiki.  Bits and pieces floated to my awareness occasionally.  These were filed away for future reference, just in case.  But for the most part, I stuck with what I’d been taught and had little idea what had been handed down to practitioners of Reiki traditions other than my own.

Some years later, I met a woman whose lineage did not include Takata.  Our discussions provided me additional information regarding Reiki and its origins, and about how Reiki has evolved since its inception.  My practice of Reiki remained the same.  While I had opened to the fact that Reiki practices are somewhat like DNA and fingerprints, it didn’t occur to me that anyone was “wrong” or egotistical or “not real Reiki”.

When I recently began following a Reiki group on LinkedIn, I experienced mild surprise with one discussion in particular.  The question presented has to do with how many attunements are correctly given in the Usui system.  My thought, of course, was that I didn’t comprehend why this would ever be an issue.  What was the problem?

However, the discussion became quite lively, and I noticed what I perceived as likely being bias and/or competition involving the various traditions represented by those in the group.  At first this bothered me.  Then, light bulb!!!!!

Since I was the one perceiving issues within the group, I must be the one with the issues!  It was my job to work on that.  So, as always, I proceeded to do exactly that.

My greatest joy would be to know that we are all one Reiki family and that we function and support one another as equals although our individual practices do vary.  In some traditions, hand positions are standardized and symbol reception/use is treated with distrust or suspicion.  In other traditions, symbol reception is commonplace, being the norm rather than the rarity, and there is fluidity/flow during treatment and attunement, with much reliance upon intuitive data and the assistance of guides.  Yet, we are all undeniably attuned in the Usui system.

There was a time of bickering and oneupmanship in the world wide Reiki community, early on.  We are not children anymore, and the world we all inhabit is in dire need of the most positive influences all of us can provide.  We have a responsibility, collectively as well as individually, as one Reiki family as well as proud members of the traditions we came up in.  We should be proud of our Reiki roots.  At the same time, we have an obligation to educate the medical community and the public about the benefits of Reiki.  Undeniably, this includes the necessity of providing all appropriate education to Reiki practitioners and teachers.

I AM profoundly grateful to better understand why there was once an effort to standardize Reiki.  However, in my own observations, the highest standards invariably arise within the individual practitioner rather than being arbitrarily set by a person or group assuming ownership/control of Reiki.  While it pains me immeasurably to witness the countless offers of free attunements, cheap attunements, and self-attunements being advertised to unsuspecting consumers who desire to learn about Reiki but are reluctant to pay the prices normally charged by reputable teaching masters, what bothers me most is the disillusion that results when students choose less-than-the-best for themselves.  Often these students become disillusioned with Reiki itself, rather than with the teacher of their own choosing.

As practitioners and teaching masters, how do we repair and reverse this?  Obviously, we can set our own standards at a very high level, we can honor the Reiki that flows through us, and we can be in every way one Reiki family.  We can begin consciously seeking out our similarities as well as celebrating the entire spectrum of Reiki traditions and forms.  We can honor and respect one another as professional equals.  We can fearlessly, lovingly share the truth and essence of who we are as Reiki practitioners.

WE CAN BE THE LOVE THAT WE ALL ARE.

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Until next post, Namaste!

Attainment of Perfect Health

Wellness begins simply with the willingness to be well.

Each human consciousness is born of a spark of Divinity within. Divine Consciousness, consciousness of our own divinity as well as that of everyone else, is within us.  In Truth, we cannot be anything other than Divine.

As with petals of a rose, aspects of consciousness unfold.  This is a gradual process.  While I do not pretend to speak for anyone else, for me this coincides with and echoes the birth process; each petal requires about nine months of “time” to open.  Attempts to force our own growth or anyone else’s are like microwaving a living flower to speed blossoming; the flower is lost when its natural process is impeded or interfered with.

Like flowers, we each have a timer within us, an inner wisdom that knows everything which is best for our own particular unfolding. Trusting this, rather than searching outside of us for “expert” advice, is learned behavior, infinitely worth mastering.

Once realization arrives that we have always been perfectly connected with our Source because being disconnected isn’t possible in the first place, we can relax.  From that moment, we can relax and allow!  We can begin to be reacquainted with the Truth of our own Divinity.

Divine Wellness is what we have known forever, and wellness is all we can be or manifest.  Wellness and health begin with a thought, exactly as do accident, disease, pain, and death.  Thoughts are changeable things.  Choose your thoughts, your words, your behaviors and actions.  Choose consciously.  Choose wisely.

In the immortal words of Mr. Spock:

“Live well, and prosper!”

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