A Mother Here

"In Her Image" - Jennifer Smith. Third Place. This work is mixed media (oil and floral decoupage) on canvas paper. The impulse behind the work came from my desire to create an image of the Prime Female as a being representative of the human race as a whole. I would love all women who view this image to feel as though they are made perfectly; in image of a Heavenly Mother who embraces and embodies all possibilities of skin/eye/hair color facial features etc.

Mother Goose

How deeply I love you, my Mother!!!

How I wish you had loved me.

You couldn’t.

You couldn’t do it!!!

You were just a shell,

A shell left over from rape,

From an unwanted pregnancy,

A baby boy you never saw, never held, never wanted.

I’m told you were abused as well.

By your father.

That is impossible for me to imagine.

It must have been someone else.

Who hurt you?

Who formed the monster you became with me?

How do you possibly justify what you did to me?

By telling the world I was “crazy”

So no one would listen if I told.

I never told.

What would be the point?

You took away or killed everything I ever loved.

You definitely tried.

You wanted me to see you

as having total power over me.

You wanted me to believe that you were

too powerful to ever be questioned.

What I know I KNOW is

You were never powerful at all,

 You were pitiful.

With all your manipulations.

All your attempts to control.

All your lies.

You are a liar!!!

Just a liar.

Your teeth caved in.

Eaten away, turned upon themselves.

Dead, dead, dead like you!!!

I wish this had a pretty ending.

But…it is what it is.

There are times when we have to be

thankful for what is!!!

I AM grateful for the way things really were!!!

You made me stronger than

I ever could have possibly imagined!!!

Without intending to do it,

You made me exactly what I AM TODAY!!!
















Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you,

thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you!!!

© Molly Silfies and ChiCreation, 1978-2078. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Molly Silfies, ChiCreation™, I AM Reiki™, Ascended Master Reiki™ and/or OnenessReiki™ with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.


The Gift of Reiki

Big Sur CA

This must be Heaven!

Applied knowledge, applying the principles, sharing and teaching what we have learned, settling in, and being comfortable in our own skins are all included in the experience of Reiki.

During and following attunement, there is such an onrush of new and recalled info coming in that we can be hard pressed to do anything except receive.  Later, as we begin to actively give, it often behooves us to take several looks at what and whom surrounds us.  We attract precisely those experiences, individuals, and items that work us through our own issues.

Some of you are thinking, “But I don’t have any issues.”  If you are living in nirvana with never so much as a bobble, perhaps this is true.  But if you still inhabit the physical plane and you ever experience even the slightest ripple, here’s a news flash for you:  Our primary work is always on ourselves.

The woman who attuned me to Reiki taught that when we attain wellness, we discover that our focus is no longer on the sick and afflicted.  We work on the sick only when we have something within us that requires healing.

In the same vein, perhaps we teach only when we have something to learn.  Those who teach learn more than their students.  Through the years, I’ve considered this frequently.

Why Reiki?  What are the limitations of Reiki and consciousness?  Are there any limits outside our own egos?

Reiki changes consciousness.

Reiki perfects consciousness.

Reiki attuned me to the incredible richness of breath, the flow of life-giving molecules, the sensual impact of flowers and sky, the kiss of wind, the beauty of water on skin, the nourishment of sunlight.

Reiki imparts the fullness of the joy of living.  With Reiki comes the awareness that I AM truly okay.  There is no requirement to earn the right to enjoy my life or the right to be here.  It is perfect to be who and what I AM without apology or reservation.

I have become my inner child.  I breathe as a child, I see as a child, live as a child, think as a child, speak as a child, and relate as a child.  My best friends are children.

Reiki has also made me aware of the perfection of others.  Anyone can find fault.  Are we not taught to do so?  Finding perfection is an ability worth cultivating.  Following a lifetime of brainwashing, it requires a bit of practice.

For me, these are the best, finest gifts of Reiki.  Not acclaim, not accolades, not even acknowledgement.  Nor fame, financial gain, publicity and money.

Reiki has made me aware of my own humanity.  Reiki has taught me that humility and humiliation are not the same thing.  Reiki has made me functional.

Each one who embraces Reiki has a unique experience that is perfect for his own growth.  Just as infants do not all walk or talk at the same age, we each experience Reiki at our own pace and capacity.  Reiki meets us where we are and takes us farther than we have ever imagined, in the ways that are perfect for us.

Until next post, namaste!


© Molly Silfies and ChiCreation, 1978-2078. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Molly Silfies, ChiCreation™, I AM Reiki™, Ascended Master Reiki™ and/or OnenessReiki™ with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.


Distance Share

Truth is outside all patterns.

Obey the principles, but do not be bound by them.

The less effort, the faster and more powerful you will be.

Three Quotes by Bruce Lee

With young children, it’s important to honor the brief attention span.  With autistics, one impression I get is that the attention span is kaleidoscopic.  Be aware of receptiveness and energy levels. There are times when you just reschedule.  Small ones, especially those with ASD, do not always rest on schedule.  When tired, they require rest, not lengthy instruction.  Plan instruction in appropriate bits and snippets.  Or forget planning.  Be spontaneous.  Go with the child’s flow.  Entrain to the child’s vibration and raise gradually as appropriate.

Early yesterday morning, I enjoy a brief, unexpected visit with B and his mom.  She has been rarely accepting of Reiki from me in the past.  She doesn’t oppose it, she just has some difficulty accepting or believing it.  Not surprisingly, she readily allows me to work with B.  She knows I’m completely harmless. 🙂

At the outset, my thought is to do sessions with him, in-person and distance sessions.  This quickly shifts as it becomes evident that he would benefit optimally from a different process.  I am a bit reluctant, making no changes for a while, using Reiki with him briefly and only occasionally, observing for improvement, progress, etc.

There is a day when he is so relaxed during a session, he falls asleep.  These hands move of their own volition.  B is attuned to Level I.  His necessary process has begun.

Within days, B begins speaking spontaneously, in full sentences and paragraphs, delighted with his newfound ability to participate in interactive conversation for the first time in his life.  Everyone who knows him and works with him assumes this has happened spontaneously, for no reason.  I see no reason to enlighten them further.

When B was newborn, he came home to a stressed-out, sickly, single mom and one grandparent.  That was his family unit.  Due to unavoidable changes, moves and stressors, as his family situation became unstable, B began to lose ground, especially with efforts to verbalize and potty train.  Frustrated when his attempts to communicate with others were not understood, he retreated into silence.

B appears intolerant of lactose and gluten, as well as sensitive to tobacco smoke.  Observing his progression from simple head-butting to full blown, running start, self-catapulting into walls, 30 – 50 times and more, as hard as he can go, I agree to work with him.

Cautious to a fault, I watch him.  Assessment must be accurate. Each person is unique.  Each process must be unique as well, and appropriate to that person’s physical form.  Like a fingerprint, like a snowflake, he is one-of-a-kind.  No standardization here.  There is  a path perfect for B.  I intend to help him walk it.

Perfect urinary and fecal continence quickly follow verbalization. In three hours, B is completely potty trained! After numerous embarrassments throughout his life, now he swaggers with complete confidence.  Mom welcomes increasing periods of relaxation, something she has not experienced since the beginning of her pregnancy with B.

B begins to dress himself, everything in its proper order and place, shoes on the correct feet.  He begins to get simple foods for himself, cereal with milk, bananas and Hershey bars, etc., without help.  All this is immensely gratifying for everyone involved.

Mom goes for a regular physical.  Her doctor tells her that her blood pressure, cholesterol levels, kidney and liver functions are off the charts; she begs out of admission to the hospital.  There is no one to watch B.  He cannot be left alone.  Mom feels stressed now with the necessity of bringing all those numbers back to normal.  I offer Reiki.  She declines.

Yesterday, I go with her and B for her labs.  We have no teddy bear with us.  It’s hands, then.  A position that is natural for him.  I hold my hands in prayer position, hands apart.  “B, put your hands together.  What do you feel?”  He feels something; recognition registers on his face.

“Do you feel that?”


“That’s energy.  Pull Mommy into your hands.”

Eyes light.  Comprehension in the facial expression.  He has her.

“Pull out Mommy’s owhees and throw them away.”  I demonstrate the hand motion.

His version is simpler, more concise.  Three hand motions.  His distance is done in a flash.  He knows the instant it’s complete and releases. The look on his face is priceless.  He knows exactly what just happened and pops his sucker back into his mouth as he gazes at leaves blowing gently on a nearby tree, letting it all sink in.

I release as well.  I tell him that he can work on anyone, anything & everything this very same way.  Including himself and his bird and squirrel friends.  He turns to make eye contact with me, grabs my hand and brings it to his cheek. Mission accomplished.  Session complete.

Mom enjoys a restful, pleasant day, free of stress and physical discomfort.

B is five years old, diagnosed with autism at three.  He is larger than many eight year olds.  Sometimes he wears a T-shirt that says, “I am a person with autism.  Please be patient with me.”  B is the patient one.

Due to confidentiality and respect for all clients, very little personal information is included here.  I’m uncertain whether this will even be posted; it won’t happen without Mom’s permission.  Anyway, it’s written documentation of the tiniest fraction of the work that’s possible with disabled children.

Please understand.  If any of this blog’s readers are inclined in any way whatsoever to work with disabled children, much of this work is not recompensed monetarily.  Many parents of disabled children are single, not by choice, but because the other parent chooses out, refusing to be involved.  Funds for daily living are often sparse, and that’s putting it tactfully.  For anyone choosing this incredibly gratifying type of practice, prepare to give freely.  The rewards are beyond anything I ever imagined.


Permission granted!  Yeehah!

B’s mom just gave me permission to use his full name.

I’ll stick with the policy of changing names to protect the innocent.

Blessings and love to you!

Until next post, Namaste.

Subtle Energies Produce Subtle Experiences

I AM THAT (which) I AM

Reiki is a subtle energy that produces results which are also subtle, except when the results are anything but subtle.

Being the energy that it is, Reiki is all about subtle experiences. Everyone in my classes has had remarkable subtle experiences. Some enjoyed them, some gloried in them, all had opportunities to learn from them.  Some went into deep fear.  More than once someone commented about being completely discombobulated. A few left the classes believing Reiki was an evil influence.

Two very special ladies come to mind:  The first went home to rest after an attunement. As she lay down, she asked aloud for someone to work on her in regard to some health issues she’d been experiencing.  She awoke a bit later, eyes still shut, feeling loving hands on her body.  She recognized that she was receiving a Reiki treatment.  Momentarily, she remembered having locked her doors before going to bed.  She began to wonder how someone had gotten into her bedroom.  Fear crept into her thoughts, so she tried to inconspicuously open her eyes.  And she saw absolutely nothing except dents in the blanket covering her, where the healing hands were undeniably still present.  She was beyond frightened and demanded that the treatment stop.  It ceased immediately.

The second lady, a devout & active Mormon 🙂 began seeing three turbaned, dark-skinned men frequently in her presence.  She knew they were Reiki masters.  It frightened her anyway, for a while.  Eventually she did open to the truth that clothing and complexion have very little to do with healing ability or spiritual advancement.

BTW, both these women completed all levels of Reiki.

The point here is that Reiki can open us beyond our formerly limited perceptions, when we are willing to allow ourselves to learn, grow, and accept that All-That-Is holds not only what is already familiar to our physical senses in this lifetime, but there is much, much more also available to us.  And it’s always our choice whether or not we accept and allow.  Opening is never forced upon us.  We are never forced beyond our own boundaries and capacities.

Some students feel perfectly safe with subtle experiences.  Some don’t.  And Reiki works for everyone.  No one ever has to go out of their comfort zone.  Yet, everyone can choose to do so.

Perhaps all these students were right.  Each person receiving attunement/empowerment/initiation brings to the table, in this case the Reiki community, the sum total of her/his being.  Reiki works through and with every aspect and facet of our consciousness.  This includes all our behaviors, beliefs, emotions, feelings, habits, ideas, programming, religious training, and socialization, and that’s just the tip of the iceberg.  We are more than all that, and we are connected to every part of our SELVES. If it is true that we have existed and lived other lifetimes, we bring all that with us.  If we have ever been brainwashed or made commitments, contracts, or covenants during our entire existence, all that comes with us.

Baggage or luggage???  It’s (y)our choice!  Individual perceptions and perspectives come with us as well.  What matters most is whether or not we label ourselves, or accept someone else’s labeling of us, and this has to do with self-love even to the point where we no longer judge ourselves.  Then, and only then, can we integrate all we are into one functional, useful whole.  Just as every cloud has a silver lining, every human quality can be applied to the beneficial service of our fellow-man. However, so long as we judge ourselves, even by accepting others’ judgments of us, we continue to see evil, undesirable influences at every turn.

So…it likely matters little to your effective practice of Reiki if your choice is to stay within bounds that feel safe to you. Once attuned, the energy flows through you to whatever and whomever you choose.

Subtle sense perceptions are equally as valid as physical sense perceptions are.  For some reason, I’ve always accepted that Reiki practitioners are generally balanced and open in applications of every appropriate perception of what is at hand.  The reality is, when we practice Reiki, we are using a subtle energy to produce document-able physical results. And often more.  Whether or not we choose to document may not matter much either.  Perhaps in the long-term, what matters most is the level of service we give.

For me, at a very deep inner level, KNOWING MY TRUTH is infinitely important and desirable.  I’m willing to practice, read, and study for many lifetimes if need be.  And I AM WILLING TO GIVE MY OWN DIVINE INNER SELF THE FINAL WORD, especially when doing so frees me to better serve.

At the very beginning of my own Reiki training, I made a commitment to hold nothing back that was mine to give, to use Reiki without hesitation, qualification, or reservation, for the good of every living being whose path I cross, including the Earth and every situation in need of the healing power of PURE LOVE.  I made this commitment of my own free will and choice, and then I solemnly promised to use the gift of Reiki freely for the benefit of All-That-Is.

My commitment is to the Divine Source that poured its knowledge of Pure Reiki into me.  I AM humbly, profoundly grateful for every subtle experience that has become an eternal piece of my Inner Knowing.

I AM absolutely certain that those seeking physical documentation of subtle experiences are on the perfect path for them, and I wholeheartedly encourage them to continue along that path, throughout eternity, if need be.  Those requiring proof of facts by external experts are also on the perfect path for them, and would most likely experience their best growth by documenting facts for as long as desired.  Likewise, those who insist upon payment for every service rendered, perhaps even subscribing to standardized charges and forms, are on the perfect path for them.  If you have chosen such a Reiki practice, trust that your own carefully chosen path is absolutely correct for you!

I have only the responsibility to offer, share and speak My Truth. I AM not always guided to do so, however, and once done, my obligation is fulfilled.  Everyone hearing me has the total responsibility to choose whether or not what I have learned, offer, share and speak is part of their personal truth.

There is nothing else quite so gratifying as is finding, keeping, and treasuring whatever is our own perfect fit!  My way may not be the way for everyone else, yet I have an obligation and responsibility to be my TRUE  SELF to the bone, all the way, holding nothing back, and to share all of me with everyone else in my personal perceptual field and range, through this magnificent gift of Reiki.

For each of us, there comes a time when we grasp control of our own lives and our power, and when we accept total responsibility for the standards of our own Reiki practice, regardless of who set those standards; we are still responsible even when we allow someone else to set our standards instead of doing it ourselves.  In my belief system, we are never individually responsible to convince anyone else to accept or believe that our own path is “right” or that “I have the only truth, my way is the only way, and everything else is wrong.”

We are each responsible to follow our own path, and when we don’t discover a path that truly fits us, we are then responsible to carve our true path out of the wilderness.


Love & Blessings from me to you!

Until next post, Namaste!

Usui’s Symbols

As planned, this post is about clearing personal issues arising due to conflicting information, confusion, contention, control issues, misinformation, and missing information in the world wide Reiki community today.

When is it okay to just say, “I don’t know.”  Is it ever okay to refuse to make an issue your personal issue?

Mentioned in the post immediately preceding this one, I’ve recently followed a Reiki forum.  A question is posted there, “Is Reiki Master/Teacher one or two separate levels?”  Comments are nearing the 100 mark.  Discussion has been enlightening, inspiring, and thought provoking.

Thinking back to my own attunement process, I recall what it’s like to be a complete newbie to Reiki.  As noted earlier, I remember the physical body sensations that came with hearing Usui’s name for the first time, the impact of learning that the man fasted for 21-days, counting the days by dropping his supply of 21 stones one stone each day over the precipice where he fasted, and that he received symbols that appeared to him in bubbles of energy.  Our teacher said that he received a number of symbols. How many did he receive?

A bit further into the training, I learned that only four of those original Usui-received symbols are in use today.  What happened to the other symbols?  When and why were those removed from common practice?  Why are they not commonly used now?  Are they recorded and archived somewhere?  Or are they “lost” to modern Reiki, available only in the Akashic Records?

Following the discussion about how many levels there are, I also recall going out into the enormous world when I completed my initial 13 months of Reiki.  There were times when I felt totally inadequate.  I questioned my ability to effectively share Reiki with others.  I even questioned whether or not I had learned the same Reiki that Usui fathered. At a point, I contacted Fran Brown.  After three conversations with her, she said, “You are fine.  You don’t need to be reattuned.  You are already attuned.”

Most of us share possession of unquenchable eagerness and willingness to make it right. But first, please find out whether there is anything wrong with your training!

If you are now seeking the perfect teacher for you, ask an abundance of questions.  Do everything within your own power to clearly understand where prospective teachers are coming from. Ask how many attunements are given at each level.  Ask how many levels are given.  Be certain you understand.  Write down the answers to your questions so you can refer to them later.

If you’ve already had attunements, you are in a very different position.  Verify that you’ve received the appropriate symbols for your level of study, that you know how to draw them precisely and what their uses are.  If you’ve paid for completion of the master level and still have questions about passing attunements or anything else regarding your training, contact the person who trained you.  This does not always produce acceptable results, so be willing to seek out a trustworthy, well-trained teacher to discuss what your particular needs are.  Also, get second or third opinions. You’ll know within you when you get the right information; you’ll experience that “click”.  It feels “right” when it is right.

There are many times many variations in the teaching of Reiki.  At one end of the spectrum, some offer Reiki attunement by distance.  (I personally do not recommend this.)  At the other end, there are teachers who require apprenticeship of various periods of time, as well as writing your own manuals, extensive documented hands-on practice, and more.  And prices vary tremendously.

Eventually I reached a point, and this was personal for me, where the hazy history of Reiki became a non-issue.  When I verified to my own satisfaction that the Usui attunements, symbols, and practices I was using are indeed authentic, my choice was to devote my time to practice rather than seeking to document “facts”.  Again, this is a personal choice, and it is not for everyone.

I am not interested in converting, convincing, or selling anyone else on the notion that my path is a better path or the only path. I’m not seeking a following or a fan club.

What I AM interested in is assisting other Reiki enthusiasts to eagerly seek their own true paths.  We each bring into physical life the unique totality of all our experiences to this point.  Each one is a unique vessel for Reiki; each one expresses Reiki through her/his individual, personal essence.  And each one is free to perceive me through his own personal perceptual field and vision. Everything is in divine and perfect order.  All-That-Is is as it is supposed to be.

What difference could it possibly make whether you receive(d) three or four levels of Usui, so long as you have the real thing? Would you really rather question your training, which, by the way, is likely perfect for you and your process, even when you choose to redo it?  Or, do you truly prefer to live and practice Reiki 24/7, every moment of your life, from now on?  It is your choice!

If and when you allow it, the energy itself will teach you all you could ever ask or desire!  I guarantee it!

That’s it, in a nutshell!  Oh!  By the way, how many symbols did Usui receive?  What happened to them?  Why are they not all in use today?


Until next post, Namaste!

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